Elephant Robot

It’s funny, not literally funny, but funny that exactly a month ago you dropped me off at the airport at five in the morning and kissed my forehead saying to remember this moment — so that when I’m angry, frustrated, sad, or missing you, I can look back at that moment and remember how we didn’t want to leave each other. I didn’t want to let go of you and you didn’t want to let me go either. Sadly, we recently parted unexpected ways and I have to leave you because you had already left me. Or maybe you always had it in the back of your mind to leave me when you wanted to. I still had hope and a plan to fix things. I’m serious that in this lifetime, I want to begin and end life with you. But yesterday, you were extremely disrespectful, controlling, and demanding — to the point where you threatened and used one of my organizations against me.

Writing brings calmness and healing.

If people question why I need to plan so far ahead in advance, it’s because my parents like to do things last minute which annoys me. For instance, I knew today they were going to say, “I don’t know. You choose.” They talked about my brother’s birthday plan over and over, but now changed their mind last minute and leave it up to my older sister me. We only have an hour to plan something. It’s always like this that I like planning in advance .. something unplanned blows me up because I’ve lived through it too many times. I really get mad when I’m in the car and my dad says, “Where do you want to go?” because I don’t need to go anywhere. Or he has us all get in the car and we drive off to some place we don’t even know about until we get there. Too many random things and parents get mad at me for not having something set when they had something else in mind. They are persistent and positive about something until last minute. Ugh. It’s called a PLAN for a reason. GO WITH IT. #Vent #Frustrated #Annoyed #BadParentHabit

I guess it’s a sad day when I lose my favorite gloves .. (sad sob)

04.15.2012

Ricochet, take your aim, fire away fire away. On the morning of Sunday, April 15, 2012 before 8:30a.m. I crossed. As the Ace of the Eligo Line Beta Class, I had to keep myself and line sisters in check more than just a few times. It was a very, very long and difficult process. My endurance and humility were stable despite the moments where I was frustrated and over-challenged. My personal motto was the song “Titanium” that kept me moving forward. I’ve never studied and memorized anything so perfectly in my life until I took this journey. Word per word without hesitation. I didn’t want to disappoint myself or anyone. Now that I look back, I miss the crazy, sad, and happy moments with my line sisters when we were in the process together. Endless and priceless memories. I love my LS so much. I’m so blessed to have incredible and lovely line sisters. I would never ever trade them for anyone. We spent so much time together and I truly do miss those moments. I am thankful for my Big who kept me sane and understanding of the organization. I am so thankful for the continuous support from my PM. I wouldn’t have been shaped to be so strong without my ADP. My Dean pushed me over my limit and I always demonstrated my strengths over my weaknesses. My dedication, commitment, and loyalty to the organization really showed. This process has taught me wonderful things about life — the importance of being united, achievements don’t come easy, and creation of sisterhood through bonding. Going through this process, I learned that I can do anything I want when I work hard for it. We all deserve our letters and distinction. We are the sisters of Delta Phi Omega Sorority, Inc. Happy One Year Anniversary, Line Sisters!